So i've ben having dreams about baby (who needs a better temporary name then baby. Dan votes for squishy but that just confuses India because her favorite baby doll is named squishy). Anyway the most recent dream i had was that there were two people from Oregon City who both picked us to be the parents of thier child and we had to decide wich one to take. I woke up and told Dan this and he goes "well thats easy we would take both of them." He's not wrong, we may be crazy but hes not wrong. Most of the time my dreams just are warm fuzzy feelings like rocking the baby and cooing at the baby with India at my side and stuff like that. It is an interesting feeling waiting for a baby when you don't know when its coming. In some ways its like being pregnant and you can't wait to see your child and you dream about it. In other ways its so differnt because you can't be sure that at the end of nine months you will actully get to see your baby. You may have to wait way longer then that or you may get lucky and get one way sooner. Not having a timeline is hard.
In other waiting news I've gotten two emails from our adoption agency lately the first one was to tell me that they have not had anyone look at our book thus far. that thier just hasn't been the opertunity. Let me clarify what this means: the adoptive parents have a list of things they want in a baby and the birth mom has a list of things they want in an adoptive family. The agency matches these lists to each other and then shows a scrapebook of the adoptive family to the birthmom. She then decides if she wants to meet you. So what our adoption agency was saying was that they have had no matches to show our scerapebook to. In a way this is a relief, because it;s not that twenty birthmoms have seen our book and didn't like us it's that no one has seen our book. In another way it makes me think this is gonna take a while.
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